Saturday, April 30, 2005
because ange reminded me of a certain someone tonight
"delphia...i won't like her cuz she's so fragile she'll just break in my arms. charmaine ah! i will never like her even if she were the last girl on earth! angelene is just her lackey."
anyway that someone is da n iel youcanESADcuzeuniceisattachedHA! l o ke.
char 4/30/2005 11:12:00 PM
came across a glimmer of wisdom in bridget jones' edge of reason
Keep thinking back about what Mum said about being real and the Velveteen Rabbit book (though frankly have had enough trouble with rabbits in this particular house). My favourite book, she claims- of which i have no memory- was about how little kids get one toy that they love more than all the others, and even when its fur has been rubbed off, and it's gone saggy with bits missing, the little child still thinks it's the most beautiful toy in the world and can't bear to be parted from it.
"That's how it works, when people really love each other," Mum whispered on the way out in the Debenhams' lift, as if she was confessing some hideous and embarrassing secret. "But, the thing is, darling, it doesn't happen to ones who have sharp edges, or break if they get dropped, or ones made of silly synthetic stuff that doesn't last. You have to be brave and let the other person know who you are and what you feel."
V.g.
and i love british humour!
starting driving lessons again next week again! finally! after a year long break (almost) my term with the school is gonna expire! pfft! bloody moneysuckers. bloody far too. don't expect i'll make a very good driver though, i'm psychomotor and can't tell my right from left or left from right, this handicap acutely manifesting everytime i play twister. have recurring horror thoughts of myself panicking and screaming while on the road and crashing into a tree soonafter just cuz a bird flies into my windscreen or to avoid an old lady crossing the road.
and yesterday other mishaps that could happen when you have a car and license to drive played right before my eyes.
:having your frontwheel punctured and flat in B3 of taka carpark at 11.15pm, good thing the serviceman was so kind as to come down in his zippy silver bmw servicemobile jeep thing even though he was off duty.
:having traffic police (from bushes/behind trees/in trees/manholes/aka nowhere) chase after you in hot pursuit cuz you were speeding down orchard road! not us though, the new tyre could only go at max 80km/h. that has to be one of the most dulan things to have happening to you. imagine sirens blaring and blinding bright lights in your rear view mirror and pulling to the side in front of all the other drivers who'd probably be smirking out loud and making L signs at their windows. aiyoh.
came across a glimmer of wisdom in bridget jones' edge of reason
Keep thinking back about what Mum said about being real and the Velveteen Rabbit book (though frankly have had enough trouble with rabbits in this particular house). My favourite book, she claims- of which i have no memory- was about how little kids get one toy that they love more than all the others, and even when its fur has been rubbed off, and it's gone saggy with bits missing, the little child still thinks it's the most beautiful toy in the world and can't bear to be parted from it.
"That's how it works, when people really love each other," Mum whispered on the way out in the Debenhams' lift, as if she was confessing some hideous and embarrassing secret. "But, the thing is, darling, it doesn't happen to ones who have sharp edges, or break if they get dropped, or ones made of silly synthetic stuff that doesn't last. You have to be brave and let the other person know who you are and what you feel."
V.g.
and i love british humour!
starting driving lessons again next week again! finally! after a year long break (almost) my term with the school is gonna expire! pfft! bloody moneysuckers. bloody far too. don't expect i'll make a very good driver though, i'm psychomotor and can't tell my right from left or left from right, this handicap acutely manifesting everytime i play twister. have recurring horror thoughts of myself panicking and screaming while on the road and crashing into a tree soonafter just cuz a bird flies into my windscreen or to avoid an old lady crossing the road.
and yesterday other mishaps that could happen when you have a car and license to drive played right before my eyes.
:having your frontwheel punctured and flat in B3 of taka carpark at 11.15pm, good thing the serviceman was so kind as to come down in his zippy silver bmw servicemobile jeep thing even though he was off duty.
:having traffic police (from bushes/behind trees/in trees/manholes/aka nowhere) chase after you in hot pursuit cuz you were speeding down orchard road! not us though, the new tyre could only go at max 80km/h. that has to be one of the most dulan things to have happening to you. imagine sirens blaring and blinding bright lights in your rear view mirror and pulling to the side in front of all the other drivers who'd probably be smirking out loud and making L signs at their windows. aiyoh.
char 4/30/2005 12:41:00 PM
Wednesday, April 27, 2005
today i felt like a moving breathing bag of lard lying in my bed immediately after lunch, hugging larry to sleep until the next sms/call woke me up. my mommy would say it's a sin, me wasting all this time lazing around when i could be like, reading my bible/attending bible study/fasting/training to live in a desert for 40 days and nights/something to that effect. my mommy, who thinks vampires and werewolves thrive in clubs. hmm.
love ya mommy!
ugh. must. exorcise. lethargy. and. laziness. outta. my. system.
oh and bad english.
oh! but
look what i found! from dictionary.com
disenable
dis·en·a·ble (ds-nbl)
tr.v. dis·en·a·bled, dis·en·a·bling, dis·en·a·bles
To make unable or incapable; prevent.
yay i was right after all :)
Wednesday, April 27, 2005
today i felt like a moving breathing bag of lard lying in my bed immediately after lunch, hugging larry to sleep until the next sms/call woke me up. my mommy would say it's a sin, me wasting all this time lazing around when i could be like, reading my bible/attending bible study/fasting/training to live in a desert for 40 days and nights/something to that effect. my mommy, who thinks vampires and werewolves thrive in clubs. hmm.
love ya mommy!
ugh. must. exorcise. lethargy. and. laziness. outta. my. system.
oh and bad english.
oh! but
look what i found! from dictionary.com
disenable
dis·en·a·ble (ds-nbl)
tr.v. dis·en·a·bled, dis·en·a·bling, dis·en·a·bles
To make unable or incapable; prevent.
yay i was right after all :)
char 4/27/2005 12:22:00 AM
Monday, April 25, 2005
i had preconceived ideas that the WWE21 session today would just be some gory gratuitous bloodfest and that i'd be surrounded by testosterone-laden ruffians of the male species, didn't expect to go to el's for anything other than the company, armed with bridget jones the edge of reason just in case i desperately needed quick redemption. turned out rather erh fun though! haha watching tripleH and batista the animal rough it out and all the super damn funny trailers on el's super tua tv screen with surround sound was like, damn fun! and cringing and "OhMyGawdOUCH"ing at the bloody scenes with ter and zk assuring me it was all scripted and fake..and when all the guys just banged their fists on the ground and laughed and cried out for inexplicable reasons it was just v endearing.
adjourning to watch a very long engagement with chinese subtitles was quite funny too, which left me with two conclusions, that the french are a mad race, and that my chinese really truly sucks.
the last conclusion was further affirmed with my ordeal at the hairdresser's today. why does chinese suddenly seem so damn impt in everyday living.
eclinics sucks!
and it's not even my turn going thru it yet.
Monday, April 25, 2005
i had preconceived ideas that the WWE21 session today would just be some gory gratuitous bloodfest and that i'd be surrounded by testosterone-laden ruffians of the male species, didn't expect to go to el's for anything other than the company, armed with bridget jones the edge of reason just in case i desperately needed quick redemption. turned out rather erh fun though! haha watching tripleH and batista the animal rough it out and all the super damn funny trailers on el's super tua tv screen with surround sound was like, damn fun! and cringing and "OhMyGawdOUCH"ing at the bloody scenes with ter and zk assuring me it was all scripted and fake..and when all the guys just banged their fists on the ground and laughed and cried out for inexplicable reasons it was just v endearing.
adjourning to watch a very long engagement with chinese subtitles was quite funny too, which left me with two conclusions, that the french are a mad race, and that my chinese really truly sucks.
the last conclusion was further affirmed with my ordeal at the hairdresser's today. why does chinese suddenly seem so damn impt in everyday living.
eclinics sucks!
and it's not even my turn going thru it yet.
char 4/25/2005 11:21:00 PM
Thursday, April 21, 2005
i don't know if i'm being horrible for not feeling sorry. but it's about time you've pushed me past my limits, yeah sure i'm here for you, i'll listen to you say you're sian, i'll ask you what's wrong, i'll do my best to comfort. but honestly when the only thing you can ever say is that you're sian and you just repeatedly wallow in your misery and after i try so hard to coax an explanation out of you to no avail, how do you think that makes me feel. and it's always the same problems and you don't ever listen to my advice. and when we're out i keep trying to make conversation, you don't talk much, and i feel bad that you're not talking much cuz i think i bore you. and i've really been nothing but nice to you all this while these past 3 years, even through all the pain and tears you've caused me i've been there for you, how you said you wanted the friendship and later you ignored me for an entire year.
i've encouraged, i've consoled, i've tried to be a good friend. i'm spent.
and when i hint at my disappointments, and i start telling you how i feel, how i feel like you're taking me for granted, how i really don't know how to help you when you're sad cuz you don't give me any freakin clue, you start getting all huffy and oh "don't call me and i won't call you" and "thanks for making me cry before i enlist". you really don't get more pathetic than that. and if you're faking crying, screw off just screw off. and for your info i hate guys using fuck on me. i've told you that from the very start. obviously that hasn't stuck.
hopefully NS does something for your maturity.
we'll resume our discussion then.
Thursday, April 21, 2005
i don't know if i'm being horrible for not feeling sorry. but it's about time you've pushed me past my limits, yeah sure i'm here for you, i'll listen to you say you're sian, i'll ask you what's wrong, i'll do my best to comfort. but honestly when the only thing you can ever say is that you're sian and you just repeatedly wallow in your misery and after i try so hard to coax an explanation out of you to no avail, how do you think that makes me feel. and it's always the same problems and you don't ever listen to my advice. and when we're out i keep trying to make conversation, you don't talk much, and i feel bad that you're not talking much cuz i think i bore you. and i've really been nothing but nice to you all this while these past 3 years, even through all the pain and tears you've caused me i've been there for you, how you said you wanted the friendship and later you ignored me for an entire year.
i've encouraged, i've consoled, i've tried to be a good friend. i'm spent.
and when i hint at my disappointments, and i start telling you how i feel, how i feel like you're taking me for granted, how i really don't know how to help you when you're sad cuz you don't give me any freakin clue, you start getting all huffy and oh "don't call me and i won't call you" and "thanks for making me cry before i enlist". you really don't get more pathetic than that. and if you're faking crying, screw off just screw off. and for your info i hate guys using fuck on me. i've told you that from the very start. obviously that hasn't stuck.
hopefully NS does something for your maturity.
we'll resume our discussion then.
char 4/21/2005 02:59:00 AM
Saturday, April 16, 2005
i think i'm a horrid friend.
sorry jac i really really do love you and on account that i've never screwed up your bday before for the past 4 yrs or so please forgive me :( i really didn't mean to get it wrong :( i'll try much harder next year!
sorry terence i don't wanna make excuses for myself i was a total bitch for forgetting and trying to cover up after that. i promise next year i will remember okay. we love you!
auurgh! lenith too! this is unbelievable!!
april is a terrible month for birthdays.
Saturday, April 16, 2005
i think i'm a horrid friend.
sorry jac i really really do love you and on account that i've never screwed up your bday before for the past 4 yrs or so please forgive me :( i really didn't mean to get it wrong :( i'll try much harder next year!
sorry terence i don't wanna make excuses for myself i was a total bitch for forgetting and trying to cover up after that. i promise next year i will remember okay. we love you!
auurgh! lenith too! this is unbelievable!!
april is a terrible month for birthdays.
char 4/16/2005 11:37:00 PM
Thursday, April 14, 2005
for
the one who makes me fall head over heels in love over and over and over again
i am not worthy.
Thursday, April 14, 2005
for
the one who makes me fall head over heels in love over and over and over again
i am not worthy.
char 4/14/2005 11:50:00 PM
Wednesday, April 13, 2005
i feel like expanding my collection of stolen goods that so far consist of a cardboard lilo and nemo wall stickers, so i'm gonna steal a red or pink moovemedia cow very very soon. jac will be my sneaky partnerincrime.
Wednesday, April 13, 2005
i feel like expanding my collection of stolen goods that so far consist of a cardboard lilo and nemo wall stickers, so i'm gonna steal a red or pink moovemedia cow very very soon. jac will be my sneaky partnerincrime.
char 4/13/2005 12:14:00 AM
Friday, April 08, 2005
it is such a secret place, the land of tears.
i miss my girl friends. alot. more than anyone will ever know.
after exhausting 3 highlighters, one whole roll of correction tape, and a whole lotta pen ink,
as i wait with bated breath for monday's arrival,
i think of this poem and i thank my maker for bringing me through the last 2 weeks.
God has not promised skies always blue,
flower-strewn pathways all our lives through;
God has not promised sun without rain,
joy without sorrow, peace without pain.
but God has promised strength for the day,
rest for the labour, light for the way,
grace for the trials, help from above,
unfailing sympathy, undying love.
Friday, April 08, 2005
it is such a secret place, the land of tears.
i miss my girl friends. alot. more than anyone will ever know.
after exhausting 3 highlighters, one whole roll of correction tape, and a whole lotta pen ink,
as i wait with bated breath for monday's arrival,
i think of this poem and i thank my maker for bringing me through the last 2 weeks.
God has not promised skies always blue,
flower-strewn pathways all our lives through;
God has not promised sun without rain,
joy without sorrow, peace without pain.
but God has promised strength for the day,
rest for the labour, light for the way,
grace for the trials, help from above,
unfailing sympathy, undying love.
char 4/08/2005 05:42:00 PM
Sunday, April 03, 2005
tribute
on why he couldn't take care of my sunflower "because taking care of you, is like taking care of myself...cuz you're a human, and i'm a human, but i'm not a sunflower."
on why he can't pick me up early "if i wake up late, i can't just go back and turn back time right?"
"i only know one kind of dog: jack daniel"
"i was born in the V hospital...oh yarh mount alVernia!"
walks into shop, notices young girl checking him out. after a minute's worth of intense concentration,
"OH! i think that was my niece!! daamn and i thought i was hot!"
you make me so happy happy.
thank you for the past six months
ilu baby :)
Sunday, April 03, 2005
tribute
on why he couldn't take care of my sunflower "because taking care of you, is like taking care of myself...cuz you're a human, and i'm a human, but i'm not a sunflower."
on why he can't pick me up early "if i wake up late, i can't just go back and turn back time right?"
"i only know one kind of dog: jack daniel"
"i was born in the V hospital...oh yarh mount alVernia!"
walks into shop, notices young girl checking him out. after a minute's worth of intense concentration,
"OH! i think that was my niece!! daamn and i thought i was hot!"
you make me so happy happy.
thank you for the past six months
ilu baby :)