Friday, April 30, 2004
sirui (12:11 AM) :
yah yah!!! one of my interviewers jus closed her file a quarter of the way thru and crossed her arms and looked at me...
i m there are other ways of telling me that i flunked my interview, dun haf to demoralise me when the interview is not even halfway thru rite?
i m quite seriously screwed... owells... guess i will be going aus to study... you leh? what if you dun get into NUS medicine?
oh yah, they asked jess to play her violin in front of them... i guess jess is screwed too cos her violin playing should be quite sucky (just started weeks ago)
char! (12:27 AM) :
argh yarh so i was like
ok i really really want this....then i repeated that as my last sentence and looked him in the eye
i mean, 1 min is enough for a short speech!
sirui (12:29 AM) :
ohmans... okay... you are jus as unlucky as me...
hey, gtg... very tired now cos i just booked out...
talk to you some other time...
char! (12:30 AM) :
okay take care man. i really hope we all get in.....i'm eternally optimistic aren't i argh
and thank you nus medicine professors and vice deans and dean, for deftly, single- handedly managing in making us aspiring medical students feel like the lowest scummiest life forms on earth. peace.
char 4/30/2004 01:36:00 AM
bored.
bored.
bored.
stuck on that outkast song
caroline!caroline!
roses really smell like boo-boo..
round and round the garden we go, where we'll stop, nobody knows.
merci
bored.
bored.
bored.
stuck on that outkast song
caroline!caroline!
roses really smell like boo-boo..
round and round the garden we go, where we'll stop, nobody knows.
merci
char 4/30/2004 12:13:00 AM
Thursday, April 29, 2004
oh no jac i'm serious i think we need to see less of each other! ! i realise we're always doing stupid things whenever we're together! like today when i ran bouncing after that lion's mane and when we ran across the road in the rain! oh mymy!
Thursday, April 29, 2004
oh no jac i'm serious i think we need to see less of each other! ! i realise we're always doing stupid things whenever we're together! like today when i ran bouncing after that lion's mane and when we ran across the road in the rain! oh mymy!
char 4/29/2004 12:01:00 AM
Wednesday, April 28, 2004
+ let go and let God
And how long has it been
Since someone you let in
Has given what I gave to you
And at night when you sleep
Do you dream I would be there
Just for a minute or two do you?
You ain't ever coming back to me
That's not how things were supposed to be
You take my hand just give it back
No other lover has ever done that
Heartache heartache I just have so much
A simple love with a complex touch
There is nothing you can say or do
I called to let you know I'm through with you
maroon 5
Look for the girl with the broken smile
Ask her if she wants to stay awhile
And she will be loved
And she will be loved
Wednesday, April 28, 2004
+ let go and let God
And how long has it been
Since someone you let in
Has given what I gave to you
And at night when you sleep
Do you dream I would be there
Just for a minute or two do you?
You ain't ever coming back to me
That's not how things were supposed to be
You take my hand just give it back
No other lover has ever done that
Heartache heartache I just have so much
A simple love with a complex touch
There is nothing you can say or do
I called to let you know I'm through with you
maroon 5
Look for the girl with the broken smile
Ask her if she wants to stay awhile
And she will be loved
And she will be loved
char 4/28/2004 11:58:00 PM
Monday, April 26, 2004
my heart is heavy with the density of unexpressed emotions, my head light with glassy thoughts and unmade decisions.
/taciturn. someone give a voice to my fears and adorations.
Monday, April 26, 2004
my heart is heavy with the density of unexpressed emotions, my head light with glassy thoughts and unmade decisions.
/taciturn. someone give a voice to my fears and adorations.
char 4/26/2004 06:00:00 PM
Friday, April 23, 2004
back from watching 50 first dates. imagine having to make someone fall in love with you from scratch over and over again every single day, even after marriage and kids and all. really really sweet movie, made me want to believe in love again and everything that revolves around that four letter word.
had a rotten morning though. rottenrottenrotten. i've said before, if i were to be a teacher, i'd teach primary school. okay now scratch that, send me back to pj anytime, please. teaching 6Boldness on monday was bad enough, teaching 5Flexibility was like total hell. i'm currently thinking of a word starting with F to describe 5F, and believe me it's nothing near flexibility. pfft. i was so angry i cried. so unprofessional but at least it shut them up "Eh keep quiet larh teacher cry already.." people say now you know what you were like last time, hello, my classmates and i were nothing like those chickens whose necks i so wanted to wring today, gave me a fresh outlook on the phrase kids these days. the only vaguely redeeming part of my hellish morning was taking the primary 4s to pe, because they were so cute. and the other thing i love is seeing my brother traipse around school with his comrades, the other day when he first saw me in the staffroom he hugged me, that's what endears him to me most, his unreserve, his jocund manner, his unadulterated purity of heart.
and my class had to watch a science video with Mrs Tan's class. she was my form teacher from primary 4 to 6, and during the show both of us were sitting on the ledge as teachers and it was strange but in an oddly appealing sort of way. i'm thankful too for the sense of familiarity i get each time i see my old teachers, thankful for the sense of groundedness in the midst of transience even in my alma mater.
feeling placid now.
damn you hunger cramps.
Friday, April 23, 2004
back from watching 50 first dates. imagine having to make someone fall in love with you from scratch over and over again every single day, even after marriage and kids and all. really really sweet movie, made me want to believe in love again and everything that revolves around that four letter word.
had a rotten morning though. rottenrottenrotten. i've said before, if i were to be a teacher, i'd teach primary school. okay now scratch that, send me back to pj anytime, please. teaching 6Boldness on monday was bad enough, teaching 5Flexibility was like total hell. i'm currently thinking of a word starting with F to describe 5F, and believe me it's nothing near flexibility. pfft. i was so angry i cried. so unprofessional but at least it shut them up "Eh keep quiet larh teacher cry already.." people say now you know what you were like last time, hello, my classmates and i were nothing like those chickens whose necks i so wanted to wring today, gave me a fresh outlook on the phrase kids these days. the only vaguely redeeming part of my hellish morning was taking the primary 4s to pe, because they were so cute. and the other thing i love is seeing my brother traipse around school with his comrades, the other day when he first saw me in the staffroom he hugged me, that's what endears him to me most, his unreserve, his jocund manner, his unadulterated purity of heart.
and my class had to watch a science video with Mrs Tan's class. she was my form teacher from primary 4 to 6, and during the show both of us were sitting on the ledge as teachers and it was strange but in an oddly appealing sort of way. i'm thankful too for the sense of familiarity i get each time i see my old teachers, thankful for the sense of groundedness in the midst of transience even in my alma mater.
feeling placid now.
damn you hunger cramps.
char 4/23/2004 01:38:00 AM
Wednesday, April 21, 2004
remember my miracle today.
Wednesday, April 21, 2004
remember my miracle today.
char 4/21/2004 03:02:00 PM
Sunday, April 18, 2004
i can't take this anymore. go away just go away.
Sunday, April 18, 2004
i can't take this anymore. go away just go away.
char 4/18/2004 02:03:00 AM
Friday, April 16, 2004
thus ends my one-week teaching stint at pjc, and i've somehow emerged unscathed but nevertheless moved by the experience. i've tried to think of ways to describe it without sounding cheesy but i think i'm failing miserably, so for what it's worth, i went in with the intention of teaching, but as it turns out i'm the one at the receiving end, the students have taught me so much. everything that happened today left such a lasting impression on me, and i'm touched by all their gestures, their words, their friendly banter, their exuberance, the warm camaraderie we've shared, i see so much potential in these kiddos, i just really hope the other teachers see it as well. and the biggest irony? the class that really pissed me off on the 1st day has turned out to be my most favourite class. something for me to think about.
and char, tonight was one of the best nights i've had in a long time :) from the good food to the wonderful gig under the stars. for the record, i love, adore, and totally dig acapella, and right now budak pantai sits right there on top as my favourite group. thanks for asking me out to the performance, we'll do this more often okay.
Friday, April 16, 2004
thus ends my one-week teaching stint at pjc, and i've somehow emerged unscathed but nevertheless moved by the experience. i've tried to think of ways to describe it without sounding cheesy but i think i'm failing miserably, so for what it's worth, i went in with the intention of teaching, but as it turns out i'm the one at the receiving end, the students have taught me so much. everything that happened today left such a lasting impression on me, and i'm touched by all their gestures, their words, their friendly banter, their exuberance, the warm camaraderie we've shared, i see so much potential in these kiddos, i just really hope the other teachers see it as well. and the biggest irony? the class that really pissed me off on the 1st day has turned out to be my most favourite class. something for me to think about.
and char, tonight was one of the best nights i've had in a long time :) from the good food to the wonderful gig under the stars. for the record, i love, adore, and totally dig acapella, and right now budak pantai sits right there on top as my favourite group. thanks for asking me out to the performance, we'll do this more often okay.
char 4/16/2004 11:56:00 PM
Tuesday, April 13, 2004
today i msged mrs tham saying i thought she might like to know that i'm currently teaching j2 chem in pjc. she replied with an okay just don't teach the wrong thing, when in doubt please clarify with other teachers and i'm sure you can remember what i've taught you.
hurhur. i bet she was probably retching on the other side or weeping because she was laughing too hard. personally, if you had told me i'd be teaching j2 chemistry 2 years back i'd have shot you a dirty look. now i'm teaching my most hated topic ionic equilibria in my absolute worst subject, God really has a quirky sense of humour. but i could get used to this, as well as all the miss lim jokes and the worst kind of cynical asperity so enthusiastically displayed by my helpful skeptics alsoknownas my friends -" my god poor pj! the pj students will fail like dunno what. the lab will burn down!!" "hsienfei can you pleaseee take over her" "are you sacked yet? tell me when you get sacked" "huh not working at 7-11 yet? how long more!" all hail the voices of reason.
yo yo, i'm a teacher! no shit!
but i don't think i'm that disgusting a replacement. after all the teacher i'm reliefing pronounces alkali as alkalee, and feedback volunteered readily by her students have ranged from her being lorsor and "wah her teaching sucks man!" and that she emphasises on all the wrong things like the importance of wearing safety goggles and no eating or drinking in labs. and at any rate they haven't discovered what a phoney A student i am, today this girl asked me how come you're teaching in pj and not hwachong in all innocence. if only she knew the truth and me being blacklisted by all my teachers. if only she knew about my disgusting chem grades ranging from D to F. but then i thought of deborah and i was only too glad to be teaching at pj stead of hc.
and i do think my teaching abilities, or rather, my ability to lie and sound vaguely credible, improves with each day. i've learnt to blatantly ignore the rowdy students and direct all my attention to the good ones, and i derive some sort of high from seeing the noisy ones actually taking down the stuff i write on the board. and one of the classes, S08, seriously mirrors 72, the guy-girl imbalanced ratio, the noisy heckcare, lolling about on the table charmaine/angelene/vanessa/jiaying type, the too-guai-for-their-own-good deborah/jessica/yinshan type. and aikes i'm actually in mrs tham's position now, now i understand how much she hated me!
and i liked teaching chem prac today, it's fun seeing the students bustle about, asking me how much FA6 to use, how to do the limewater test just right, listen to them quip "it's EFFERVESCENCE larh! not evanescence!!" like, d-oh. i liked fussing over this girl who spilt hot reagent on her finger, taking out the first aid kit and putting the antiseptic cream on. i liked showing people how to hold the test tube in the flame properly, liked emphasising all the main points like, when you add acid, remember to test for gas! and don't ever ever write no change, always write no ppt formed or solution remained colourless, and always always add dropwise till excess for NH3 and NaOH.
and pj people have funky names, like sigmund and sidney and aries.
checkkit.
i actually miss doing this. as a student that is.
Tuesday, April 13, 2004
today i msged mrs tham saying i thought she might like to know that i'm currently teaching j2 chem in pjc. she replied with an okay just don't teach the wrong thing, when in doubt please clarify with other teachers and i'm sure you can remember what i've taught you.
hurhur. i bet she was probably retching on the other side or weeping because she was laughing too hard. personally, if you had told me i'd be teaching j2 chemistry 2 years back i'd have shot you a dirty look. now i'm teaching my most hated topic ionic equilibria in my absolute worst subject, God really has a quirky sense of humour. but i could get used to this, as well as all the miss lim jokes and the worst kind of cynical asperity so enthusiastically displayed by my helpful skeptics alsoknownas my friends -" my god poor pj! the pj students will fail like dunno what. the lab will burn down!!" "hsienfei can you pleaseee take over her" "are you sacked yet? tell me when you get sacked" "huh not working at 7-11 yet? how long more!" all hail the voices of reason.
yo yo, i'm a teacher! no shit!
but i don't think i'm that disgusting a replacement. after all the teacher i'm reliefing pronounces alkali as alkalee, and feedback volunteered readily by her students have ranged from her being lorsor and "wah her teaching sucks man!" and that she emphasises on all the wrong things like the importance of wearing safety goggles and no eating or drinking in labs. and at any rate they haven't discovered what a phoney A student i am, today this girl asked me how come you're teaching in pj and not hwachong in all innocence. if only she knew the truth and me being blacklisted by all my teachers. if only she knew about my disgusting chem grades ranging from D to F. but then i thought of deborah and i was only too glad to be teaching at pj stead of hc.
and i do think my teaching abilities, or rather, my ability to lie and sound vaguely credible, improves with each day. i've learnt to blatantly ignore the rowdy students and direct all my attention to the good ones, and i derive some sort of high from seeing the noisy ones actually taking down the stuff i write on the board. and one of the classes, S08, seriously mirrors 72, the guy-girl imbalanced ratio, the noisy heckcare, lolling about on the table charmaine/angelene/vanessa/jiaying type, the too-guai-for-their-own-good deborah/jessica/yinshan type. and aikes i'm actually in mrs tham's position now, now i understand how much she hated me!
and i liked teaching chem prac today, it's fun seeing the students bustle about, asking me how much FA6 to use, how to do the limewater test just right, listen to them quip "it's EFFERVESCENCE larh! not evanescence!!" like, d-oh. i liked fussing over this girl who spilt hot reagent on her finger, taking out the first aid kit and putting the antiseptic cream on. i liked showing people how to hold the test tube in the flame properly, liked emphasising all the main points like, when you add acid, remember to test for gas! and don't ever ever write no change, always write no ppt formed or solution remained colourless, and always always add dropwise till excess for NH3 and NaOH.
and pj people have funky names, like sigmund and sidney and aries.
checkkit.
i actually miss doing this. as a student that is.