Tuesday, December 30, 2003
people at somerset have nicer handwriting than the people at great world city.
char 12/30/2003 01:32:00 PM
Monday, December 29, 2003
i'm back at work again...data entry really sucksshit larh. it's so excruciating staring at a monochrome monitor and even worse trying to decipher what the heck the customers are writing on their information cards. and how are we supposed to mail you a $50 voucher you've won if you don't leave your postal code either. and uncle duzzen let me use icq on the comp! he smacked me when he caught me msging van and promptly threatened to tell my dad. the squealer. haiyarhh. anyway disclaimer my uncle does not own a bra shop so i beseech you do not make digs at me tagging them cuz it was just a one off thing, and do not ask me for their prices and designs either and whether i can get you a discount please, please. today i tagged nice little girlie overalls and ralph lauren baby rompers -like how cute is that, so you can probably tell how wide the variety of clothes they stock is.
anyway ange and van and blahblah are at chinablack now, cass borrowed my id again..hope for ange and van's sake there aren't too many dis-gus-ting underaged guys who say they're in NS and then proceed to slime you esp when the lights are dim whilst you're in blissful oblivion of their oily acne-ridden prepubescent faces. alcohol duzzen help either.
i don't wanna do data entry tmr!! :(
Monday, December 29, 2003
i'm back at work again...data entry really sucksshit larh. it's so excruciating staring at a monochrome monitor and even worse trying to decipher what the heck the customers are writing on their information cards. and how are we supposed to mail you a $50 voucher you've won if you don't leave your postal code either. and uncle duzzen let me use icq on the comp! he smacked me when he caught me msging van and promptly threatened to tell my dad. the squealer. haiyarhh. anyway disclaimer my uncle does not own a bra shop so i beseech you do not make digs at me tagging them cuz it was just a one off thing, and do not ask me for their prices and designs either and whether i can get you a discount please, please. today i tagged nice little girlie overalls and ralph lauren baby rompers -like how cute is that, so you can probably tell how wide the variety of clothes they stock is.
anyway ange and van and blahblah are at chinablack now, cass borrowed my id again..hope for ange and van's sake there aren't too many dis-gus-ting underaged guys who say they're in NS and then proceed to slime you esp when the lights are dim whilst you're in blissful oblivion of their oily acne-ridden prepubescent faces. alcohol duzzen help either.
i don't wanna do data entry tmr!! :(
char 12/29/2003 11:00:00 PM
I'm alive but tell me am I free?
I got eyes but tell me can I see?
The sky is falling and no one knows
Well, it shouldn't be hard to believe
shouldn't be this difficult to breathe
The sky is falling and no one knows
sky is falling * lifehouse
I'm alive but tell me am I free?
I got eyes but tell me can I see?
The sky is falling and no one knows
Well, it shouldn't be hard to believe
shouldn't be this difficult to breathe
The sky is falling and no one knows
sky is falling * lifehouse
char 12/29/2003 02:07:00 PM
Sunday, December 28, 2003
meditation
it's time for me to reflect on the past year. sieve out the good and the bad from 2003's experiences, think about how i want to build up from what i've achieved this year, and learn from my past mistakes. actually it's not like me to do reflections, i just live from year to year, week to week, day to day. but mabel made us do this assignment thing yeah so i'm being forced to hahah.
anyway i thought 2003 was a downright terrible year, esp towards the end. for reasons other than the a's that will remain undisclosed. and when i was posed the question, which were the best parts of 2003, i had to take a full 7 minutes to fill up the 3 spaces. and i really never want to live thru 03 ever again. what with sars and the iraq war and the 6th season of pck and prelims and a's and shittier stuf. and you think what could be worse than a's. ha but there's a hell lot that could be worse than a's.
then someone told me, there's no such thing as a terrible year. every year is different, every year will have its ups and downs. i don't know i still think 2003 was pretty terrible for me, but then thru all the struggling and difficulties i think i've emerged stronger. though not necessarily unscathed and possibly irrevocably scarred, but definitely stronger. and when i said that mabel and jo smiled and i realised i was smiling with them too.
happy new year everyone.
Sunday, December 28, 2003
meditation
it's time for me to reflect on the past year. sieve out the good and the bad from 2003's experiences, think about how i want to build up from what i've achieved this year, and learn from my past mistakes. actually it's not like me to do reflections, i just live from year to year, week to week, day to day. but mabel made us do this assignment thing yeah so i'm being forced to hahah.
anyway i thought 2003 was a downright terrible year, esp towards the end. for reasons other than the a's that will remain undisclosed. and when i was posed the question, which were the best parts of 2003, i had to take a full 7 minutes to fill up the 3 spaces. and i really never want to live thru 03 ever again. what with sars and the iraq war and the 6th season of pck and prelims and a's and shittier stuf. and you think what could be worse than a's. ha but there's a hell lot that could be worse than a's.
then someone told me, there's no such thing as a terrible year. every year is different, every year will have its ups and downs. i don't know i still think 2003 was pretty terrible for me, but then thru all the struggling and difficulties i think i've emerged stronger. though not necessarily unscathed and possibly irrevocably scarred, but definitely stronger. and when i said that mabel and jo smiled and i realised i was smiling with them too.
happy new year everyone.
char 12/28/2003 01:31:00 AM
Friday, December 26, 2003
today was a good day :)
i finally feel at ease talking to him in person, and it's such a huge relief. like i didn't have to think very hard to respond and stuf the way i used to...but then again maybe it was cuz most of the conversation revolved around one central figure hahaha. or two. why couldn't it have been easier in the beginning. owell i'll never know now will i.
it's raining again..
But,
I miss you when your gone,
That is what I do, baby.
And its going to carry on,
That is what I knew, hey baby.
Hold on to my hands,
I feel like sinking,
Sinking without you.
when you're gone * cranberries
(and i'm posting this here strictly by virtue of its niceness and nothing else)
Friday, December 26, 2003
today was a good day :)
i finally feel at ease talking to him in person, and it's such a huge relief. like i didn't have to think very hard to respond and stuf the way i used to...but then again maybe it was cuz most of the conversation revolved around one central figure hahaha. or two. why couldn't it have been easier in the beginning. owell i'll never know now will i.
it's raining again..
But,
I miss you when your gone,
That is what I do, baby.
And its going to carry on,
That is what I knew, hey baby.
Hold on to my hands,
I feel like sinking,
Sinking without you.
when you're gone * cranberries
(and i'm posting this here strictly by virtue of its niceness and nothing else)
char 12/26/2003 06:32:00 PM
Do you remember me
I sat upon your knee
I wrote to you with childhood fantasies
Well I'm all grown up now
And still need help somehow
I'm not a child but my heart still can dream
So here's my lifelong wish
My grown up Christmas list
Not for myself but for a world in need
No more lives torn apart
That wars would never start
And time would heal all hearts
And everyone would have a friend
And right would always win
And love would never end, no
This is my grown up Christmas list
As children we believe
The grandest sight to see
Was something lovely wrapped beneath the tree
But Heaven only knows
That packages and bows
Can never heal a heartached human soul
No more lives torn apart
That wars would never start
And time would heal all hearts
And everyone would have a friend
And right would always win
And love would never end, no
This is my grown up Christmas list
What is this illusion called the innocence of you
Maybe only in our blind belief can we ever find the truth
No more lives torn apart
That wars would never start
And time would heal all hearts
And everyone would have a friend
And right would always win
And love would never end, no
This is my grown up Christmas list
This is my only lifelong wish
This is my grown up Christmas list
Do you remember me
I sat upon your knee
I wrote to you with childhood fantasies
Well I'm all grown up now
And still need help somehow
I'm not a child but my heart still can dream
So here's my lifelong wish
My grown up Christmas list
Not for myself but for a world in need
No more lives torn apart
That wars would never start
And time would heal all hearts
And everyone would have a friend
And right would always win
And love would never end, no
This is my grown up Christmas list
As children we believe
The grandest sight to see
Was something lovely wrapped beneath the tree
But Heaven only knows
That packages and bows
Can never heal a heartached human soul
No more lives torn apart
That wars would never start
And time would heal all hearts
And everyone would have a friend
And right would always win
And love would never end, no
This is my grown up Christmas list
What is this illusion called the innocence of you
Maybe only in our blind belief can we ever find the truth
No more lives torn apart
That wars would never start
And time would heal all hearts
And everyone would have a friend
And right would always win
And love would never end, no
This is my grown up Christmas list
This is my only lifelong wish
This is my grown up Christmas list
char 12/26/2003 10:46:00 AM
Wednesday, December 24, 2003
watched hc choir carol at fullerton today, and i hafta agree with bernia that they've lost that certain spark that we (claim to) have, but sops are improving nevertheless. and the tenors really look like chipmunks larh i don't know why but they do. if they were to suddenly burst into an impromtu rendition of alvin (and when i say alvin i mean the actual cartoon character) and the chipmunks' "Christmas don't be late" i won't be able to tell the difference. and teo chee hean was there too talking to ms lim..royalty in our midst. haha and char remember you told me about uncle teo i had to fight back a laugh seriously. and your pri school friend wasn't emceeing either maybe her accent did her in.
and then i watched the christmas play darkest before dawn at coos with hsien and sanduo. yes i can add another pair to my list of couples-whom-i've-been-a-lightbulb-with. hai will this curse never end, i'm cursed even on christmas eve. hai-yarh. anyhow it was good! the stage effects were like woh. haha actually i won't mind watching the 11pm show to usher in Christmas with the rest of my christian brothers and sisters. it's a nice feeling to be singing o holy night at 12 am on christmas day.
and i think the calling's versh of carol of the bells is supremely nice.
O holy night, the stars are brightly shining,
It is the night of our dear saviour's birth.
Long lay the world in sin and error pining,
Till He appeared and the soul felt its worth.
A thrill of hope the weary world rejoices,
For yonder breaks a new and glorious morn,
Fall on your knees, O hear the angel voices.
O night divine, O night when Christ was born!
O night divine, O night, O night divine.
Wednesday, December 24, 2003
watched hc choir carol at fullerton today, and i hafta agree with bernia that they've lost that certain spark that we (claim to) have, but sops are improving nevertheless. and the tenors really look like chipmunks larh i don't know why but they do. if they were to suddenly burst into an impromtu rendition of alvin (and when i say alvin i mean the actual cartoon character) and the chipmunks' "Christmas don't be late" i won't be able to tell the difference. and teo chee hean was there too talking to ms lim..royalty in our midst. haha and char remember you told me about uncle teo i had to fight back a laugh seriously. and your pri school friend wasn't emceeing either maybe her accent did her in.
and then i watched the christmas play darkest before dawn at coos with hsien and sanduo. yes i can add another pair to my list of couples-whom-i've-been-a-lightbulb-with. hai will this curse never end, i'm cursed even on christmas eve. hai-yarh. anyhow it was good! the stage effects were like woh. haha actually i won't mind watching the 11pm show to usher in Christmas with the rest of my christian brothers and sisters. it's a nice feeling to be singing o holy night at 12 am on christmas day.
and i think the calling's versh of carol of the bells is supremely nice.
O holy night, the stars are brightly shining,
It is the night of our dear saviour's birth.
Long lay the world in sin and error pining,
Till He appeared and the soul felt its worth.
A thrill of hope the weary world rejoices,
For yonder breaks a new and glorious morn,
Fall on your knees, O hear the angel voices.
O night divine, O night when Christ was born!
O night divine, O night, O night divine.
char 12/24/2003 11:49:00 PM
today i waited for hsien for close to 45 min at the commonwealth bus stop with a 4.5 kg turkey and 25 sticks of otah whilst listening to darryl rant about the perils of med school and ns until he boarded 970.
if there's anything i learnt today, it's patience.
today i waited for hsien for close to 45 min at the commonwealth bus stop with a 4.5 kg turkey and 25 sticks of otah whilst listening to darryl rant about the perils of med school and ns until he boarded 970.
if there's anything i learnt today, it's patience.
char 12/24/2003 12:24:00 AM
Tuesday, December 23, 2003
oh yeah my baptism date has been changed to the 31st of jan sat 5pm now.. please make new markings in your calendars thankew
and hello chloe here's wishing you sweet dreams of winter wonderlands and fairy sleighbells tonight :)
Tuesday, December 23, 2003
oh yeah my baptism date has been changed to the 31st of jan sat 5pm now.. please make new markings in your calendars thankew
and hello chloe here's wishing you sweet dreams of winter wonderlands and fairy sleighbells tonight :)
char 12/23/2003 01:17:00 AM
yday was a good day. i saw so many people i haven't seen for ages from the minute i woke up and headed down to kap for breakfast to the time i hugged zi goodbye at night. and i wished merry christmas to almost everyone else and hugged them too. i wish everyday of the year could be like that. when we're so uninhibited about our feelings and it doesn't kill us to really truly show that we care. the christmas season just seems to open up our eyes and melt our hearts so that we can savour just for awhile that feeling of giving and not expecting anything in return. we give and send love through presents and cards, without expecting the other party to reciprocate. and i think that's the magic of it all. during december the crowds in orchard don't seem half as irritating as usual and i can smile at people who don't hold the door for me and the heavy downpours don't even seem to dampen my spirit. and it duzzen even really bother me that i'm netsing like crazy, right down to a $1 hotdog at ikea, cuz i've exhausted my cash supply buying gifts. okay it does bother me a little but wth. everything's just so warm and fuzzy and bright. what does bother me though is my ever increasing paunch, testament to all the ginger snaps kettle chips takopachis and oreo blizzards i've been scoffing down but that's a different matter altogether. and i won't even mind waking up way too early just to rush down to suntec with hsien to buy a turkey in the morning, and later sing some christmas carols solo during the party. alright at the risk of sounding like a badly written hallmark card i'd just like to wish everyone a merry merry christmas in advance and may all of you find love peace and joy in everything you do in the new year.. lufyall
and i got to see snow today during breakfast! :)
yday was a good day. i saw so many people i haven't seen for ages from the minute i woke up and headed down to kap for breakfast to the time i hugged zi goodbye at night. and i wished merry christmas to almost everyone else and hugged them too. i wish everyday of the year could be like that. when we're so uninhibited about our feelings and it doesn't kill us to really truly show that we care. the christmas season just seems to open up our eyes and melt our hearts so that we can savour just for awhile that feeling of giving and not expecting anything in return. we give and send love through presents and cards, without expecting the other party to reciprocate. and i think that's the magic of it all. during december the crowds in orchard don't seem half as irritating as usual and i can smile at people who don't hold the door for me and the heavy downpours don't even seem to dampen my spirit. and it duzzen even really bother me that i'm netsing like crazy, right down to a $1 hotdog at ikea, cuz i've exhausted my cash supply buying gifts. okay it does bother me a little but wth. everything's just so warm and fuzzy and bright. what does bother me though is my ever increasing paunch, testament to all the ginger snaps kettle chips takopachis and oreo blizzards i've been scoffing down but that's a different matter altogether. and i won't even mind waking up way too early just to rush down to suntec with hsien to buy a turkey in the morning, and later sing some christmas carols solo during the party. alright at the risk of sounding like a badly written hallmark card i'd just like to wish everyone a merry merry christmas in advance and may all of you find love peace and joy in everything you do in the new year.. lufyall
and i got to see snow today during breakfast! :)
char 12/23/2003 01:03:00 AM
Monday, December 22, 2003
i had a terrible dream last night. the worst thing is that it seemed so real and thinking about it, it wasn't totally unrealistic. i dreamt that i got C D C for history (?!?!?!?!), maths, and chem a's in that order. and this teacher presumably ms ong i can't quite remember passed me my result slip saying with a shake of the head, this one..i don't know what happened. anyway wassup with history i don't for the bloody life of me take history..and i got C for gp!!!! this is serious shit. i didn't check the slip for chinese though. not that i recall.
van and ange and someone else was in my dream.
van was all sympathetic, she scored better than me though.
ange, erhh ask me if you dare about your score.
it was a nightmare in the full sense of the word i woke up quivering and shaking and trembling down the stairs at 7 am, and yes such an ungodly hour, to my mummy sitting at the breakfast table sipping coffee. and in response to my dream she was like don't you worry even if you get C D C and have to go poly, rem that God has great plans for you so you should accept your fate or something to that effect.
this is where i heave a huge sigh.
Sigh.
then i went back up to bed and hummed have yourself a merry little christmas and after awhile it was alright :)
okay okay please wish me sweet dreams tonight.
Monday, December 22, 2003
i had a terrible dream last night. the worst thing is that it seemed so real and thinking about it, it wasn't totally unrealistic. i dreamt that i got C D C for history (?!?!?!?!), maths, and chem a's in that order. and this teacher presumably ms ong i can't quite remember passed me my result slip saying with a shake of the head, this one..i don't know what happened. anyway wassup with history i don't for the bloody life of me take history..and i got C for gp!!!! this is serious shit. i didn't check the slip for chinese though. not that i recall.
van and ange and someone else was in my dream.
van was all sympathetic, she scored better than me though.
ange, erhh ask me if you dare about your score.
it was a nightmare in the full sense of the word i woke up quivering and shaking and trembling down the stairs at 7 am, and yes such an ungodly hour, to my mummy sitting at the breakfast table sipping coffee. and in response to my dream she was like don't you worry even if you get C D C and have to go poly, rem that God has great plans for you so you should accept your fate or something to that effect.
this is where i heave a huge sigh.
Sigh.
then i went back up to bed and hummed have yourself a merry little christmas and after awhile it was alright :)
okay okay please wish me sweet dreams tonight.
char 12/22/2003 12:23:00 AM
Saturday, December 20, 2003
i don't think i'll be getting snow this christmas, so my falling snowflakes here will suffice for now.
Saturday, December 20, 2003
i don't think i'll be getting snow this christmas, so my falling snowflakes here will suffice for now.
char 12/20/2003 10:41:00 PM
The grey ceiling on the earth
Well it's lasted for a while
Take my thoughts for what they're worth
I've been acting like a child
Your opinion, what is that?
It's just a different point of view
Whatever else, what else can I do?
I said I'm sorry, yeah, I'm sorry
I said I'm sorry, but what for?
If I hurt you then I hate myself
I don't want to hate myself,
don't want to hurt you
Why do you choose your pain if you only knew
How much I love you,
love you
Well I won't be your winter
And i won't be anyone's excuse to cry
And we can be forgiven
And I will be here
Old picture on the shelf
It's been there for a while
A frozen image of ourselves
We were acting like a child
Innocence and in a trance
A dance that lasted for a while
Read my eyes just like a diary
Oh remember, please remember oh
Well I'm not a beggar, but what's more
If I hurt you then I hate myself
I don't want to hate myself, dont want to hurt you
Why do you choose that pain if only you knew
How much I love you, no
Well I won't be your winter
And I won't be anyone's excuse to cry
We can be forgiven
And I will be here oh
No, I won't be your winter
And I won't be anyone's excuse to cry
And we can be forgiven
And I will be here
I won't be your winter
And i won't be anyone's excuse to cry
If we can't be forgiven
I won't be here
sister hazel
The grey ceiling on the earth
Well it's lasted for a while
Take my thoughts for what they're worth
I've been acting like a child
Your opinion, what is that?
It's just a different point of view
Whatever else, what else can I do?
I said I'm sorry, yeah, I'm sorry
I said I'm sorry, but what for?
If I hurt you then I hate myself
I don't want to hate myself,
don't want to hurt you
Why do you choose your pain if you only knew
How much I love you,
love you
Well I won't be your winter
And i won't be anyone's excuse to cry
And we can be forgiven
And I will be here
Old picture on the shelf
It's been there for a while
A frozen image of ourselves
We were acting like a child
Innocence and in a trance
A dance that lasted for a while
Read my eyes just like a diary
Oh remember, please remember oh
Well I'm not a beggar, but what's more
If I hurt you then I hate myself
I don't want to hate myself, dont want to hurt you
Why do you choose that pain if only you knew
How much I love you, no
Well I won't be your winter
And I won't be anyone's excuse to cry
We can be forgiven
And I will be here oh
No, I won't be your winter
And I won't be anyone's excuse to cry
And we can be forgiven
And I will be here
I won't be your winter
And i won't be anyone's excuse to cry
If we can't be forgiven
I won't be here
sister hazel
char 12/20/2003 10:40:00 PM
Friday, December 19, 2003
Understand the things I say
Don't turn away from me
Cause I spent half my life out there
You wouldn't disagree
D'you see me, d'you see
Do you like me. Do you like me standing there
D'you notice, d'you know
Do you see me, do you see me
Does anyone care
Understand what I've become
It wasn't my design
And people everywhere think
Something better than I am
But I miss you. I miss
'Cause I liked it. 'Cause I liked it
When I was out there
D'you know this, d'you know
You did not find me, you did not find
Does anyone care
Does anyone care
Friday, December 19, 2003
Understand the things I say
Don't turn away from me
Cause I spent half my life out there
You wouldn't disagree
D'you see me, d'you see
Do you like me. Do you like me standing there
D'you notice, d'you know
Do you see me, do you see me
Does anyone care
Understand what I've become
It wasn't my design
And people everywhere think
Something better than I am
But I miss you. I miss
'Cause I liked it. 'Cause I liked it
When I was out there
D'you know this, d'you know
You did not find me, you did not find
Does anyone care
Does anyone care
char 12/19/2003 08:18:00 PM
Thursday, December 18, 2003
freshness hit a whole new level today.
Thursday, December 18, 2003
freshness hit a whole new level today.