Friday, January 31, 2003


i sit and wait
waiting for a sign
an emblem of you
jagged edges of a love lost
expounding with time

sweet-nothings that meant nothing

(and everything is about you)


char 1/31/2003 11:48:00 PM






i'm crying outside the door of your candy store.


char 1/31/2003 11:34:00 PM




Wednesday, January 29, 2003


and you fall and you crawl and you break.

centre stage preliminaries 03


char 1/29/2003 11:33:00 PM




Monday, January 27, 2003


i'm starting to think how i don't have anything to write here anymore. Nothing with substance at least. I don't want to chronicle my daily events here because i am a boring person and this is a boring world and everything is just boring boring boring. nothing that i've typed hasn't been typed before. my entries are tottering on the edge of sounding repetitive (boring boring boring), but i don't want to leave my blog idle you see. woe is the one stricken with ambivalence and woe is me.

my bio tutorial beckons. today is a new day, heaven forbid.


char 1/27/2003 12:08:00 AM




Sunday, January 26, 2003


where did the weekend go
is it me or is life getting increasingly mundane.


char 1/26/2003 11:34:00 PM






you bleed just to know you're alive.

iris


char 1/26/2003 11:17:00 PM




Friday, January 24, 2003


it only takes kinder bueno, glitter snowflake giftwrap, and pretty blog templates to make me happy.



char 1/24/2003 08:32:00 PM




Tuesday, January 21, 2003


a star-spangled universe





char 1/21/2003 11:33:00 PM




Thursday, January 16, 2003


i wanted to paint you a landscape of beautiful things. Of tinted wings and iridescence, of milky twilight and butterfly dreams. Golden rays of aurora sunrises and fleurs that dance in the shadows of rain(tear)drops. Antiqued roses and dahlias redolent with your perfume, still a lingering even in the musty air.

but you desist.


char 1/16/2003 11:13:00 PM




Tuesday, January 14, 2003


shoot me.
get this but i'm thinking i really like hwa chong junior college now. i don't know when i actually started feeling this way..some things happen -poof!- just like that and the next thing i know i start babbling stuff i wouldn't have dreamt of saying previously. like this.

Vegetating at the class bench each morning, copying homework, laughing and gossiping, then lumbering reluctantly to the central plaza. and i'm starting to think of how the school song does actually summon up a swell of (call it) pride in the mornings...and then there starts the whole monotonous routine of going for tutorials, going for lectures, going for tutorials. mr yeow's math lectures are the greatest, whilst bio lectures are always ordeals. Each 40-min break is a thrill to behold, and going home at 3.45 is a treat. My class is pretty darned great too. ange van and gra my constant and most wonderfullest source of laughter i love you 3. sirui who's teaching me to fly. and a whole host of colourful, beautiful characters that i wouldn't trade for the world.

And when JT / mr pang / tiger lee are on the prowl, the rush of adrenaline is indescribable. With a frantic tucking in of shirts we do our best little-miss-prc impersonations until the coast is clear. reading periods and wed's CT sessions are a time to slack, and after school we bitch and whinge about choir and "shit lah 7.30 alreadyyy.."

then there's the annual school events.
beeeeeg fat hairy deal rj celebrates vday. WE celebrate CNY and MAF.
now (you) can go and figure out what maf is. .


char 1/14/2003 11:42:00 PM




Sunday, January 12, 2003


Yo no naci sino para quereros;
Mi alma os ha cortado a su medida;
Por hábito del alma misma os quiero.

Escrito esto en mi alma vuestro gesto;
Yo lo leo tan solo que qun de vos,
me guardo en esto.

Quanto tengo confiesso yo deveros;
Por vos naci por bos tengo la vida,
Y por vos de morir y por vos
muero

Por vos


char 1/12/2003 12:53:00 AM




Monday, January 06, 2003






What lame pick up line are you?


how about this : (with a sexy drawl) my name isn't fred flintstone but i can make your bed rock.

omg.


char 1/06/2003 01:07:00 AM










char 1/06/2003 12:56:00 AM




Saturday, January 04, 2003




Let the stars in the sky remind us of man's compassion
Let us love till we die
and God bless us everyone
In your heart there's a light as bright as a star in heaven
Let it shine through the night
And God bless us everyone

Till each child is fed, till all men are free
Till the world becomes a family
Star by star up above
And kindness by human kindness
Light this world with your love
And God bless us everyone



char 1/04/2003 12:08:00 AM




Wednesday, January 01, 2003


h ä p p y 2 Ö Ö 3

little alarm bells are pealing in my head;
1/i owed people money over the new year!!! eeep!!!!
2/i'm officially a j2 student
3/haven't done alcohols and phenols tutorial
4/wth, haven't done all my chem homework

or it could be the side effects from last night's countdown dinner at NUS guild house. Must say i did have a ball of a time in that ballroom, to my own bewilderment. When pseudo-elvis, wonderwoman,marilyn monroe, and austin powers pranced about on the stage with kinky dancers, i had to bite my lip to stop myself from screaming bloody murder. Then old men started cavorting with the dancers, and while the whole room was reverberating with the strains of Las Ketchup and the blithe and glee of all 30 tables was almost tangible, I started screaming bloody murder. Couldn't be heard over the ketchup song though. Hell even my darling parents were getting in on the act. Okay but well i guess that was the end of all my woes, things started looking up and i actually did manage to enjoy myself. Especially after i earned myself fifty bux so i can finally recoup my losses and start paying off my numerous debts. the fifty was hard earned though. (all 300 people at the bash and charmain can testify to that) So yep, managed to catch some of that elusive party spirit and actually get hyped up for 12 midnight.And admittedly, it was fun :)

then this morning, was awoken by a very frantic jac who told me to look at page three of the main page of the Straits Times. Owell.

And speaking of which, doesn't school suck like a vacuum??? I'm all set for a torturous year ahead..life can be a little bitch but shit happens so deal with it huh. sigh. k, was reflecting over 2002 last night..personally i thought it was a horrid year fraught with many difficulties. And thinking back i do have numerous regrets. But i guess with each turn of a new year, we're given a chance to start life afresh on a clean slate, and for that i'm very extremely grateful.

so bring it on, 2003. you don't scare me.



char 1/01/2003 01:58:00 PM






as an afterthought

c l o s e t o y o u

Why do birds suddenly appear
Every time you are near?
Just like me, they long to be
Close to you

Why do stars fall down from the sky
Every time you walk by?
Just like me, they long to be
Close to you

On the day that you were born
The angels got together
And decided to create a dream come true
So they sprinkled moon-dust
In your hair of gold
And starlight in your eyes of blue

That is why all the girls in town
Follow you all around
Just like me, they long to be
Close to you

On the day that you were born
The angels got together
And decided to create a dream come true
So they sprinkled moon-dust
In your hair of gold
And starlight in your eyes of blue

That is why all the girls in town
Follow you all around
Just like me, they long to be
Close to you

Just like me, they long to be
Close to you

Close to you




char 1/01/2003 01:32:00 PM