Wednesday, October 30, 2002


hi this is grace speakin..announcement: yield to the princess

ohmygawsh. yarh. that was gross grace. anyway i'm damn frussed.....my bio mark is fixed and yes i got an O!!! an O for bio!!!!! waddashit. duzzen help that grace is erh yarh spoiling my entry. bleah her. anyway my comp is down.....so all my mp3s and stuf and icq history is lost!!! i'm so sad. then during bio lect we had to do this survey....and one of the questions were,after you came to hc, how enthusiastic do you feel about bio? my answer to that was -wavered- the next question:how has your confidence in bio changed, my ans:lost. and then it hit me...how much my interest in bio has faltered...how little i trust myself...bio used to be my favourite subject. and i really enjoyed it...to the extent of being passionate about it. right now i can't even muster an E for bio. I don't know what to do anymore.I've never felt this helpless/stupid/nincompoopish ever and i wish i could die.

maths lect now.
bye.


char 10/30/2002 11:26:00 AM




Sunday, October 27, 2002


t h e l i g h t h o u s e
While I was sailing foreign seas,
The day turned into night;
My hopes dimmed with the darkness,
Until I saw a light.
I said a prayer and kept my watch,
Steered steady by that flame;
I landed safely on the beach
The hour the sunrise came.
But when my feet had touched the sand,
I could only stand and stare;
Though rocks and reefs abounded,
There was not a lighthouse there.
And then i knew what rescued me and put my fears to flight-
My faith in God's continual care
Had guided me that night.


char 10/27/2002 01:28:00 AM






went to church today....very very early but i was still late for cell. haha which was cancelled cuz of poor attendance.and after all mabel wasn't there.had tea with joanne and charmain at bk and talked for pretty long. tried to convince char that hwachong was the way to go but haha she still thinks otherwise. owell like i've said i'm sick of defending hc...and would you guess it was my brother's baptism today! so happy :) very very happy. so i was going to buy a pres for him...but haha financial difficulties set in and i still had to tithe. so settled for this nice book mark....quite apt for the occasion...shall type out the text on it later. and so yup there i was in the pews with my friends but my parents and lincoln were sitting in the front....didn't have a good view from where i was but i was all tiptoes and craning my neck to see. and then tim went into the baptism pool...(char was like "does your bro have bushy eyebrows? i think that's him!") and my heart was full of unspeakable joy. It's the kind of happiness that transcends all human understanding....the kind that is God-given and only God-given. I was so proud of him. And the band had dipped into the climax of a worship song....it was amazing. and as i stood in the pews...looking at the boy i've watched and grown up with...i was so touched i cried...and hot tears ran down my cheeks. If i'd listened a little harder.i'd have heard the angels..rejoicing and chorusing together in heaven. And if i'd opened the eyes of my heart, i'd have seen God sitting from His throne beaming with pride. And the rush of wind that had enveloped me would be from the beat of angel wings, instead of the air con draft.

and after the service...i gave my brother a hug. and for once he didn't faint nor withdaw nor shriek molest. he's past that age anyhow thank goodness.

so happy birthday Timothy. revel in God's love and abide in Him at all times.
here's to your new life in Christ.


char 10/27/2002 12:39:00 AM




Saturday, October 26, 2002


sarah brightman cheng :) you rock


char 10/26/2002 11:13:00 PM






Yet if hope has flown away
In a night, or in a day,
In a vision, or in none,
Is it therefore the less gone?
All that we see or seem
Is but a
dream within a dream.every artist dips His brush into His own s o u l and paints His own nature into His pictures.


char 10/26/2002 11:05:00 PM




Thursday, October 24, 2002


ice ice, baby

"u gif ppl a v special impression of urself, special grace and demeanour....... but seem unapproachable at times.... u gif ppl a v fresh outlook and sparks interest in ur observers, though u seem heck care on da outside u r actually vv passionate on da insde...... so let it go, let ur passion show itself......."

outcome of vincent's latest (psycho)logy test. yeah. i'm an ice maiden. eat your heart out.


char 10/24/2002 12:35:00 AM






getting awfully tired of choir sessions..it's dumb to sing about white christmases and fat geese when i feel like the grinch.and we sound horrendous!!!! not at all flattering to the carols..and to fullerton for that matter.To think the seniors overthrew ac to sing last year..we sounded really terrible today during combined.I don't know if it was the lack of direction, or whether we simply sucked. I hate singing when we don't have full strength and i hate it when certain sections don't get their parts and i hate it when we don't have a proper conductor. I sound like a total bitch don't i.

sweet and innocent. nah. well at least dumber than dirt makes up for it.


char 10/24/2002 12:07:00 AM




Wednesday, October 23, 2002


char 10/23/2002 11:57:00 PM




Monday, October 21, 2002


i'm so pissed. as if the day couldn't get bad enough....met this bastard angmoh guy in the lift at taka today. Was on the phone with ange...quite distracted and all. so when the lift came i wasn't exactly thinking so i walked in (walked not rushed) as people were leaving. So i entered the lift faster than the angmoh could leave. and as he left he turned around and said "maybe next time you might wait for me to leave before you enter" in this uppity voice. and he glared at me...whilst i was still on the phone, so i didn't really catch what he said until seconds later...and a little further away he turned and diaoed me again. the bitch. i'm so so irritated. if anyone needed a lesson in courtesy it's him. and the rest of the expatriates in Spore for that matter. it's not enough that they come here to steal our jobs, and noo...it's perr-fect-ly alright that they reject offers for donations during flag days...when they're earning big bucks equivalent to the income of a 3rd-world president's. But they have to come here and give us lessons in courtesy!!!!!!!! ARGH! in the lift at taka no less!!!


char 10/21/2002 11:23:00 PM




Sunday, October 20, 2002


bought a ticket to the end of the rainbow
watched the stars crash in the sea....


char 10/20/2002 11:57:00 PM






What Element Are You?


char 10/20/2002 11:44:00 PM






PG-13

Now we're getting somewhere - your actions are
now past pre-teen level, and you're beginning to
display some more mature content in your life


"Which Movie Classification Are You?"
Test created by Jamie - take it here.



char 10/20/2002 11:41:00 PM




Saturday, October 19, 2002


....::hjc peRspECtiVes : open house 2002 ::....

so i didn't spit on every single chinese high guy that came. nor did i whack them with a fly swatter.

so people kept stealing my glow-in-the-dark stars that we painfully strung up at the choir booth. and the choir banner refused to unravel and undroop.

so i quit daniel's AG after three days of being in it. and what better time to quit than just before open house.

so i still don't know how to dance the hc mass dances. and i still cringe at the chinese songs

so the band played pokemon and doraemon. and the choir sang a chinese song (which happened to be the altos' favourite :)

so the mg tennis team's headed for NJ (good God) and i hate chaiyee...

so i enjoyed myself. very very muchly

so there.


char 10/19/2002 01:00:00 AM




Friday, October 18, 2002


looking forward to open house tmr..i think setting up the choir booth, decorating all those stars, painting the banner, got me in the festive mood. i luuuurrrve it when the central plaza is bedecked with banners and the like. it's just so. festive. ok excuse my limited vocab but yeah yknow what i mean! Owell and i hope hope pray pray and pleeead that hc openhouse will be much better than rj's. didn't enjoy the rj openhouse one bit last year...the people were icky. place was icky. toilets were icky.oh well to each his own....so yeah! run through the halls of high school, blast the music in the left and right wings, and bring hc down!! hahah hc kababa

(!)

:all this from me. the most unlikely hwachongian from the hwachong far-maly. i ask you.


char 10/18/2002 12:07:00 AM




Thursday, October 17, 2002


i'm yoyoing between stupid and not-stupid.


char 10/17/2002 12:11:00 AM




Tuesday, October 15, 2002


( Skyscrapers )
Cresting the skyway brow
Suddenly there stands a crowd
A host of gleaming towers
Black at the roots
Nematodes
Shriveled in their shadows, walking

Wild Einstein clouds
Expound from shocking top corners
Falling, falling relatively through blue

As I did for you

Time expands, reeling
Space folds down, diminished
To strings and wormholes
Without your warm, certain presence
In three, wholesome dimensions

I am all at sea with these buildings
Unless you anchor me
You, my gravitational constant
Telling me up from down
So I may walk through the valleys
Of my home planet
Keeping balance
Between rooted earth, adventuring sky.
ยค


char 10/15/2002 11:49:00 PM






char 10/15/2002 01:05:00 AM




Monday, October 14, 2002


argh i've spent the last 2 hours trying to rearrange the template and it's not working!!! argh how irritating blast the confounded thing


char 10/14/2002 11:58:00 PM






ok that wasn't very short.it's quite late now.


char 10/14/2002 12:58:00 AM






going to write something short before i knock off..class chalet was pretty good! though we ended up doing nothing much twas a wunnerful time of getting together i guess. spoken like a true social rep haha speaking of which feeling quite bad that jess and deborah had to do so much work but then again some proactivity is good. owells. so met jiaying and ange and van before we went to the place...did i mention it's really uluated...and lo and behold gregory was waiting for well, s o m e b o d y (not us) at the entrance of tanah merah mrt station. the guy had two bux can u believe it!!! so yarh he caused a beeg hooha and all of us ended up being pretty much pissed at him.checked the place out when we got there....the bungalow was quite spacious.Facilities were passable but there wasn't the holiday sorta atmosphere. Had the company of several half-naked bengs in the next bungalow singing chinese karaoke and i swear that wasn't part of the package. Deborah and gang were preparing foodstuf in the kitchen...we had crayfish! haha and they are pretty good cooks in particular jess...but well pizza seemed a better option than whatever they were cooking.Spent the early part of the night watching save the last dance...then for the rest of the night explored the place and the playground...then played mahjong and bridge and reminisced about daomingsi and lxhy.
But bed called....earlier for me and jess and deb and teresa so 4 of us trooped up to the queensized bed, leaving ange jiaying weijie jayne and yenshan downstairs to while the night away. haha mingled/slept with/next people i don't usually mix with in class...and had fun whilst doing it (: haha teresa was telling us quizzes and we were trying to dig up the goss about her and tis wushu guy. teased deb about kevin kok hahahaha and she was desperately trying to convince us that she "hated" him. we know better debbo :) and had a rather serious discussion about the state of affairs in our class...and yeah had a good talk with deborah who looked eerily like sadako in the dark. THEN jess heard someone/smth snoring and teresa said it wasn't her so that initiated a round of screaming (from teresa and yours truly) and yarh myself hugging ticklemecookiemonster. who started laughing in the dark when i hugged it too hard. and so the mishap ended with another round of screaming. The spasms of laughter downstairs and the drone of the Aircon radiator eventually lulled us to sleep.Slept a grand total of 4 and 3/4 hours which is pretty impressive for a chalet.Then went for a round of bowling after breakfast prepared by jess....ahah we were all rather sedated as were our bowling balls that preferred to end up in the gutters.
it's too bad i had to go...church and cell group you see. couldn't absent myself any longer from cell so yeah i left....would've liked to stay on though i heard the bbq was fun....so i ended up at esplanade later that night..with seow and jac and charles and evelyn...and erh cookie monster that charles dropped on the floor!!! in mac's!!!! gross.he nearly threw it into some fountain too....and that sent me running down the flights of steps to save my poor cookie.The place was bloody freaking crowded and it was hell trying to edge my way through the crowd. saw quite alot of hc people and abigail the joshua seducer much to seow's disdain haha....the fireworks display was really something but wish we had a better view....was so cool when people from the rooms in Westin leaned out to whoop and cheer. The atmosphere was really nice, everyone seemed to be in a festive mood..even the girl at starbucks who served us. She played with my cookie monster and then seow's mum gave us a ride home...we bitched about abigail on the way with esther and seow's mum joining in. haha! the whole family is in the fight against abigail hee.




char 10/14/2002 12:54:00 AM




Friday, October 11, 2002


Take the M&M's Test @ Rasberry Rain


char 10/11/2002 12:13:00 AM






char 10/11/2002 12:13:00 AM




Wednesday, October 09, 2002


-contented sigh- it's the second day of post promo (festivities). There was a million and one things i'd wanted to do before promos and right now i don't even know where to start! heh. Got class chalet coming up...singing at my uncle's book launch come nov/dec..with disconnected smands. ahha. miss people like seow and habz and sheryl alot... hope all of us get to sing. then carolling at fullerton...never felt such liberation in a long long time...like shackles have finally rusted away. Then again..it's been hell this year..producing less than exemplary results in daily work as well as the first two block tests. I blame it on the fact that i'm in hwachongjuniorcollege but then i did some self analysis and i must say i've been majorly slacking here. Even in mg..i worked harder than i do now and i did homework on a daily basis. even results weren't so consistently bad. with a capital BAD. So realising the state i was in...and the shit i had to pull myself out of, i decided to stop digging my own grave and get my act together. and actually vaguely study hard for promos. It's either i spend an extra year in hc =the horrors:and watch year after year of chinese high aliens from the outer world come in= as a retainee and hell no i do not want to do that. Or promote with 3 subjects. or four. So yarh crossing both legs and fingers that life doesn't get me down just yet...and i'll be able to stay in O2s72 next year.Mugged considerably hard this time..very hard to me at least...so do hope results reflect at least part of my effort. hah. So maths seemed fine...can secure an E i think. hopefully D. physics was tragical...gp was outta point. Chem was fine. but then it seemed "fine" for bT2. Lost alot of marks for bio cuz time management/or the lack of it rendered me luckless at attempting essays. mmm. doesn't look too good does it.
ah well. the iniquities of life. the iniquities of a Singaporean teenager's life. the iniquities of MY life. would make it tons easier if i had photographic memory...and an extra brain would help. or the stamina of a horse. Or a horsepower-brain. whatever.


char 10/09/2002 10:52:00 PM






2 full months of wanton and unadulterated bliss

it's times like these that make me feel life is worth living


char 10/09/2002 12:09:00 AM




Tuesday, October 08, 2002


I left my conscience like a crying child
Locked the door behind me put the pain on file
Broken like a window I see my blindness now

I need love
Not some sentimental prison
I need God
Not the political church
I need fire
To melt the frozen sea inside me
I need love

Driving into town tired and depressed
Like a flare the street light bursts into an SOS
Peace comes to my rescue and I don't know what it means
I need love



char 10/08/2002 12:10:00 PM




Friday, October 04, 2002


oohoh i luf care bears! i don't think i'm really birthday bear though. and i didn't even know there was a birthday bear in the first place.hahah yuck oh and the care bear quiz says that my happy go lucky personality makes me vulnerable to cheap tricks. hah? anyhow right now i feel like bedtime and grumpy bear cuz i'm so bloody tired and jaded and promos just suck suck suck.



char 10/04/2002 11:52:00 PM






Birthday Bear
You are the partier of the bunch! No matter what's going on, you can find a reason to throw a big bash. You're extremely outgoing and love to show others how to have a good time.




char 10/04/2002 11:45:00 PM